I totally blame myself but then I like to think I’m only human. Lock down has given me so many unexpected things, some of which are positive and obviously some that are negative. When I think back to ‘that day’ at school last March - (when the other mums and I could kind of see what was coming but still weren’t able to fully process the enormity of what was brewing) I find myself holding my breath, like when you re-watch a scary movie, you know the ending but the feeling of